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I refuse to believe what just happened.
It seems I can't explain to him how important communication is to me. How important it is for me to know what's going on with him because he is indeed on my mind 24/7. He doesnt understand that I do not want to be dragging anything out of him, I want to be someone who can just help him, be there for him. Yet, what he makes me feel is only worthless and meaningless.
He explains himself: I do not want to worry you. Well, eventually I do get to know what's been going on a I get upset. Why wouldn't he trust me with any of those? I do not lead the comfortable life from movies, I do not party away every weekend or elsewhen. All I want is to be with him. Yet, je would rather hide in the shade of "I am fine" when it is so damn clear that nothing is fine. I can't understand why so many of his friends, mostly females can take care of him, visit him anywhere and anyhow and show their desire to be useful and fullfilled. Well, what so wrong did I dothat he refuses any sign of my affection? I feel this way and I feel like probably I am the bitch. It is so easy to push me to the line of guiltriping and make me walk on the edge of sorrow and guilt.
It breaks my heart to think of this relationship as of some of those I already had, the ones where we do not really grow together, the ones where we do not even know each other, the ones where we feel comfortable with each other, enjoy our bodies and take off once the affection of the spring is gone. I feel so miserable and so downcast although I was the accusing side but I am so scared to be the one left out again, I can't understand why would he do this, and I think I would never understand the way he feels about this.
And I am certain of only one thing: if we do part, I want it to be quick.
It seems I can't explain to him how important communication is to me. How important it is for me to know what's going on with him because he is indeed on my mind 24/7. He doesnt understand that I do not want to be dragging anything out of him, I want to be someone who can just help him, be there for him. Yet, what he makes me feel is only worthless and meaningless.
He explains himself: I do not want to worry you. Well, eventually I do get to know what's been going on a I get upset. Why wouldn't he trust me with any of those? I do not lead the comfortable life from movies, I do not party away every weekend or elsewhen. All I want is to be with him. Yet, je would rather hide in the shade of "I am fine" when it is so damn clear that nothing is fine. I can't understand why so many of his friends, mostly females can take care of him, visit him anywhere and anyhow and show their desire to be useful and fullfilled. Well, what so wrong did I dothat he refuses any sign of my affection? I feel this way and I feel like probably I am the bitch. It is so easy to push me to the line of guiltriping and make me walk on the edge of sorrow and guilt.
It breaks my heart to think of this relationship as of some of those I already had, the ones where we do not really grow together, the ones where we do not even know each other, the ones where we feel comfortable with each other, enjoy our bodies and take off once the affection of the spring is gone. I feel so miserable and so downcast although I was the accusing side but I am so scared to be the one left out again, I can't understand why would he do this, and I think I would never understand the way he feels about this.
And I am certain of only one thing: if we do part, I want it to be quick.