[koreatown]

I dislike my life and that terrifes me. 
I have to quit my job asap and find something that will not make me dread waking up in the morning 5 days a week. 
I am losing interest in consuming: e.g. social media, tv shows etc. I want more experiences, relationships with people, creation, learning and output. But I do not have any hobbies and I do not know what and how to get one. I feel I never had time to do that or to get involved with anything besides consuming. I also have no interest in smckng wd anymore but I will do it occasionally an deach time I do it, I am less and less satisfied with the effect. I am forcing myself to read again and I feel.. indifferent about it. 
My therapist thinks I should go on meds and I am starting to think that maybe I have nothign to lose, given my indifference to everything and anything around me. I spent a lot of money this season too. On skis, ski pass, a dental implant and a root canal. I feel terrfied and indifferent at teh same time. I feel like I no longer care about anything. I want to quit my job and just go bartend or worse - live on savings until I find a job. That is too risky but I, once again do not care.