I have many things to say to my mom. I want to tell her i am worried and afraid. I want her to know i am not looking for a job for her because i just want her to relax and not do anoything as long as i can work. I want to tell her i actually did quit smoking and she doesnt ahve to hiss at me every time i come home. I want her to know i am ok if she decides to divorce my dad. i want to tell her a lot of things but i wont.
I want to tell P. that i really like and appreciate everything about him and i love his gentle attention and his care. But i cant forgive and forget the lies he got himself into in the beginning of our relationship. I forgave him but i cant trust him. iwant him to know that I do not forgive cheaters and i dont forgive lies. I want him to know that i WILL be seeing other guys over summer and that i am okay with him meeting/having sex with whoever will be within his reach. I just want him to stop lying. I want to tell him that there are times he makes me feel embarrased. But i forgive him and dont show it. I want to thank him fo rdealing with me and my nasty personality and irritability. I just want him to know that i start feeling the dame about hima s i felt with my ex. caged.
I want to tell myself that i may not be the best but i still need to egt my shit together for me. because if i cant do it for me. than hey. noone will