I also want to change many of my habits, such as studying in studying halls and reading better of the paper source, I figured I need to adjust to life instead of adjusting life to yself, at least at the given point.
Lately I been feeling bit anti-social. I do not want to put a lotif effort into meeting any people or doing new things. All I want to do is succeed in my classes. I still have tha "good student" syndrome. It is quite sad tho that I would trade social life for grades which matter little in the end. I also been feeling happy with myself completely alone in the room. I seek escape from my own house, my mother and T. And now that I keep thinking of us being apart and me being much happier with that than he is, I can assume several things of my own self and his needs. I am not here to satisfy his needs, yet this is what he wants and erquuires of me all the time. VBut if I am not willing tot satisfy his needs, do i not love him? I can not figure this riddle out.